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Yawn! Where did the joy go?

Wow am I tired today. Maybe it's because I didn't have my peanut butter on wheat toast this morning. I didn't have my tea either. It's only ten thirty at night, and I'm seriously ready for bed. *yawn* :/

Today I saw someone on TV painting. I suddenly felt really sad. I haven't drawn or painted in sooo long. Of course I've had the mother of all writing funks for a very long time now too. I sit down and try to but the joy is gone. I feel it waiting. I get excited, but I can't bring what I need to the surface. Anyway, I realized today that I stopped doing a lot of things I enjoy, or stopped enjoying things I do. lol Both I think. Why? I think I just forgot what it's like. Not one picture have I even doodled, not even one small one-shot piece of writing written. I need to find that again.

No pics today. I totally forgot about them. :( OOps! I'll post them next couple of journal entries.

If this entry makes little to no sense I blame it on my tiredness. :)

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No longer enjoying things you used to enjoy is a classic sign of depression, though it doesn't necessarily have to be serious.


I know. There are some days I don't even have a reason to feel depressed, but I will. It's kind of bizarre actually. I'll just feel sad in general. I've often wondered if I'd be classified as clinical, but I don't think so. A better diet and more vigorous exercise is probably what my body needs. :)

Slumps happen to, but...and I know no one likes this...if a slump drags on you have to FORCE yourself to the other side...often they don't end, if you don't.

I totally agree with you that you have to force yourself. I've been writing, but I hate everything that I write. I think it all sucks and therefore hate doing it. It could be a frame of mind thing.

It's funny. Last night, after I posted this, I actually wrote one whole page and liked doing it. I didn't think it was all crap. Let's hope I don't read it today and get pissy about it. Classic writer's symptom there, but I think I'm going to the n-th degree here. :)

Or for drawing, you can force yourself to go out and sketch a tree or a pair of eyes or whatever.


THe thing with the drawing is I haven't even thought about doing it. It's like I forgot I can do it, or that I actually like to do it. :/

Take some artsy photographs, make a pair of earrings, etc.


Taking photos sounds like a great idea! I don't have any jewelry making supplies handy, but I do have a beautiful new dslr camera that I don't know how to fully use yet. lol It needs some exercise I think. :)

Thanks for the suggestions.

P.S. If you're interested in marketing yourself and your jewelry on a larger scale I have a few ideas. Bart and I do a lot of marketing and research marketing -- specifically online do-at-home stuff, so if you want an idea... It would consist of writing articles and blogging.
Well I'm curious, that's for sure. I won't know until I try selling if I can handle the stress or not...it's so hard to judge my capability now because my physical tolerance to stress is absurdly low. (It was never high but physically speaking it used to be about normal, I think.)

Still, writing articles and blogging doesn't sound very difficult :)

I have blah days where I just feel crappy even if it's a good day...I think everyone does. It's the frequency and severity of those days that says whether you've got a serious problem or not, I'd think. :)
I have blah days where I just feel crappy even if it's a good day...I think everyone does. It's the frequency and severity of those days that says whether you've got a serious problem or not, I'd think. :)

I think so too. And I think being aware of it doesn't make it as bad either.

I'll email you with my find about the marketing. :)